Quiet time and reflecting by the shimmering lights of Christmas is something I love (the thought of) but must admit I don't do very often. Why? I don't even know. This morning I curled up in my soft, velvet, red chair near the window with sounds of dripping drops of rain and the reflection of our amber tree lights in the window. I took a breath...wow why don't I do this more often!?
I found myself reflecting on how absolute I have found things to be in the past. All or nothing...when really there is so much in between. Someone either loves me or hates me when really could it be both just at different times. I am happy or sad...is it one or the other or can they exist side by side? Reality, when I am honest with myself, says...BOTH doing the best I can, AND possibly disappointing someone at the same time is very true. And it's not good or bad...it just is. Knowing God has designed us with the desire to KNOW us helps me have peace in the midst of it all.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
I try to tell my girls as often as possible 'You are fearfully and wonderfully made' and have found myself holding that truth close lately as well. I am thankful for so much this Christmas season...The good the bad and everything in between!